Maybe I Think to Much

Today I was going to share some family photos, but a lot has been going through my head and my heart lately. 

As I read others words of encouragement, triumph, and love, I begin to wonder about my life journey and if I am on the right path. 

I wonder if my words can mean as much to someone else as others mean to me. I wonder if my writing is good enough.. if my photography is beautiful.. if I am fashionable.. if I am creative enough..

I begin to feel fear and question my worth. 

When this happens I usually take a step back, stop blogging, put down my camera, in fear that I will never be "good enough." I put so much stress upon my own self, so much pressure to be prefect, to give it my all, and to try harder next time. This pressure starts to dwell on my passion and my-self worth dwindles. 

Sometimes depression sets in, and sometimes I feel lonesome.

For some reason, after I take a break from everything, I always come back. I sit behind my computer, read a blog post, an inspirational quote, or view a gorgeous photo and a spark goes through me. I feel the urge to pick up my camera or write a post (that may never be published). Something tells me this is the path I should take. That if I can reach out to just one person, my journey is worth it. 

So here I am today, holding onto the ledge of a cliff, hoping to regain my balance, so I can climb back up and continue on with my journey.