Babies have been on my mind a lot lately. It seems that every time I log on to Facebook or read a blog, someone is announcing a new pregnancy. While I am truly happy and excited for each and every announcement, I also feel a little bit envious. As Ethan grows older, I realize more and more how much we want to add a little addition to our own family :)
I always planned on having our children two years apart. I wanted Ethan to have a brother or sister who was close in age, so he would always have someone to play with, take care of, and be best friends with when he's older. As we all know, things in life don't always work out the way we plan. Next month Ethan will be turning 3 and unfortunately, there are no babies in our immediate future. As much as we want to add to our family, we just aren't in the right place to do so. This one bedroom suite and temporary job isn't the ideal situation to add a baby into the mix. Our bed has already exceeded capacity with the three of us. Although it's not the right time, I still long to hold another baby in my arms. I look forward to being able to share the cherished experience of pregnancy, birth, and newborn stage with my husband, because he missed out on them last time. And I very much want to give Ethan a brother or sister. I know God has a plan for us all and is working at getting us to the stage where we can be ready.
Another thing I know for sure is when that time comes, Ethan will be an excellent big brother!
Ethan is just as ready for a brother or sister as we are! In the last several months, he has been talking and asking a lot about baby sisters and baby brothers. It comes up in conversation all the time. Even when we are at the grocery store and he sees a little girl in a shopping cart he always asks "that baby sister?" Or when he gets to play with my friends son and he starts to refer to him as baby brother.
I know he will be an excellent big brother, as he practices on Sam all the time. Last week I took him to the park and Sam came along, as he usually does, but this time in the middle of our walk he started to hold Sam like this,
I asked him, "what are you doing?" and he responded "I'm holding Sam like a babbbyy!"
This is how he carried him all the way to the park.
He even pushed Sam on the baby swing
And put him down the slide.
He puts Sam down for naps and tells me "Shhh! Sam's sleeping." He changes Sam's diaper because "Sam pooped on the couch." He even shares Snacks and drinks with Sam and puts him into time-outs when he's naughty. Every time I see Ethan do these sweet things, it makes me smile and get impatient for the future.
Through this experience, I see that God is trying to teach me patients. It's been really hard! I just have to learn to trust in him. I have to learn that everything in life happens on his terms. Having faith in him will get us where we need to be so that
someday,
when we are ready,
he will bless us with a baby
and oh will that baby be loved!
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13 comments:
oh this seriously brought tears to my eyes! I totally feel the exact same way right now. I have such mixed feelings about having more babies and I'm just not sure. I feel like my son would LOVE a sibling, but we just don't know how we feel about having more...thanks so much for sharing your story ;-) Have a great day!
what a sweet post!! i love the ethan plays with sam like a baby. so cute! my oldest use to do this with elmo when i was pregnant with owen.
I already have two, but we want four so I can somewhat relate. Your so right though, when the time is right He will bless you and everything will work out :)
It's so hard to understand why things happen in the timing they do..it is all according to God's plan for our lives. Trusting in His guidance is all that we can do. :) I love these pictures! Ethan is taking such good care of Sam...he is ready for a baby brother or sister!! :)
He is so adorable. And your post was very sweet. I know how hard it is to trust in God's plan sometimes, but it looks like you are doing a good job of doing so. Just found your blog & am loving it!
Ethan is going to be a great big brother when the time is right!
I know what you mean by baby talk. There are some many friends/family I know that are. Even my husband is talking about..almost every week. Not sure if I'm ready. Best of luck with everything.
-wHiT
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I know what you mean by being in the right place. Ours was a little surprise this time around..... eh hem.... but god knows what he's doing. Your little ethan is so sweet! :-)
Aw, Ethan is adorable! From what it seems, he will be a very gentle and loving older brother when the time comes.
You have such a great perspective on this. Your Ethan is just adorable. My two older ones are 3.5 years apart and it works so well. Another year added to it would have been fine. My middle and youngest are 17 months apart and it is very tough. I actually prefer a bigger gap, but that's just me. God will provide for you in the right time and I know you know that. : ) In the meantime, soak in this time with Ethan. That one on one time is precious and so unique.
my daughter has a stuffed bunny..."bun-bun" she is like another family member...so cute ;) Love your thoughts about future babies...when that baby finally gets here...they will be so loved :)
thanks for your comment on my blog. : ) And I LOVE the name Ethan - that's at the top of our list for when we have a baby - which is hopefully soon - your post is a reminder that God is in control of when that will happen for us. thanks!
oh and i'm a new follower!
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