Babies have been on my mind a lot lately. It seems that every time I log on to Facebook or read a blog, someone is announcing a new pregnancy. While I am truly happy and excited for each and every announcement, I also feel a little bit envious. As Ethan grows older, I realize more and more how much we want to add a little addition to our own family :)
I always planned on having our children two years apart. I wanted Ethan to have a brother or sister who was close in age, so he would always have someone to play with, take care of, and be best friends with when he's older. As we all know, things in life don't always work out the way we plan. Next month Ethan will be turning 3 and unfortunately, there are no babies in our immediate future. As much as we want to add to our family, we just aren't in the right place to do so. This one bedroom suite and temporary job isn't the ideal situation to add a baby into the mix. Our bed has already exceeded capacity with the three of us. Although it's not the right time, I still long to hold another baby in my arms. I look forward to being able to share the cherished experience of pregnancy, birth, and newborn stage with my husband, because he missed out on them last time. And I very much want to give Ethan a brother or sister. I know God has a plan for us all and is working at getting us to the stage where we can be ready.
Another thing I know for sure is when that time comes, Ethan will be an excellent big brother!
Ethan is just as ready for a brother or sister as we are! In the last several months, he has been talking and asking a lot about baby sisters and baby brothers. It comes up in conversation all the time. Even when we are at the grocery store and he sees a little girl in a shopping cart he always asks "that baby sister?" Or when he gets to play with my friends son and he starts to refer to him as baby brother.
I know he will be an excellent big brother, as he practices on Sam all the time. Last week I took him to the park and Sam came along, as he usually does, but this time in the middle of our walk he started to hold Sam like this,
I asked him, "what are you doing?" and he responded "I'm holding Sam like a babbbyy!"
This is how he carried him all the way to the park.
He even pushed Sam on the baby swing
And put him down the slide.
He puts Sam down for naps and tells me "Shhh! Sam's sleeping." He changes Sam's diaper because "Sam pooped on the couch." He even shares Snacks and drinks with Sam and puts him into time-outs when he's naughty. Every time I see Ethan do these sweet things, it makes me smile and get impatient for the future.
Through this experience, I see that God is trying to teach me patients. It's been really hard! I just have to learn to trust in him. I have to learn that everything in life happens on his terms. Having faith in him will get us where we need to be so that
when we are ready,
he will bless us with a baby
and oh will that baby be loved!
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