Honestly, today I didn't have a post to publish. It's Wednesday which usually means I have a What I Wore post, but this week I didn't take any outfit pictures. So this morning I came up with plan B; I will post a project I completed. I spent all morning trying to edit existing photos and retaking bad photos of E's completed dresser, in hope to get a post together. As I waited for the new photos to upload I received a reminder on my phone to read my prayer plan. Multitasking at it's finest, I decided to read my prayer for the day hoping it would make me feel like I actually accomplished something today. After reading, I felt like I have been feeling a lot lately, lost.
I don't understand.
Does that ever happen to you? You read a scripture to only feel like you don't get it.
In efforts to gain some understanding I went to She Reads Truth and read some of the responses from that days prayer reading. Usually this is so helpful and inspiring to read. But today it left me feeling more like a failure.
What is wrong with me?
These women get it. They understand the scripture. These words speak to them.
Why aren't they speaking to me?
Feeling depressed and upset with myself, I continued to edit photos. It didn't feel right though. All I was doing was trying to avoid the feelings and the hurt.
Maybe I'm not good enough to be loved..
Then something told to to turn on my music. Just turn it on and listen. So I did. What I heard spoke straight to my heart. The Proof of Your Love by for King & Country was the first song I heard. That song and every single song that followed had lyrics that lifted all those feelings away. They spoke to me in a way that I can't even describe. Leaving tears to my eyes and relief in my heart. Suddenly, I wasn't lost. I was exactly where He wanted me to be.
The Lord speaks to us all in different ways, at different times. He always knows. Knows exactly what we need at exactly the right moment.